Say Something…

“It is not over, unless you stop trying.” ― Nabil N. Jamal

I feel like I gave up. Subconsciously that is.

I have been eating really well, until the last two weeks. My world imploded into even more stress and I spiralled.

I feel a gaping hole inside my chest that grows and grows. I need to fix it, but fixing it means letting go of many, many things that I’m not sure I’m ready to.

I spend, and have spent, so much time making sure my children’s lives were as amazing as I could make them that I forgot to live as well. It’s the trap of the motherhood – we give and give and give until our lives have been sucked out and there is nothing left but a deep hole.

I’m not giving up though. I’m fighting it kicking and screaming. It may not look that way, but I am.

I WILL SUCCEED.

A Great Big World, Christina Aguilera – Say Something

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About NB Gwen

I'm me, I work, I play, I'm a bit unique - but I guess that's all in perspective
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