Explosions

“Every morning I jump out of bed and step on a landmine. The landmine is me. After the explosion, I spend the rest of the day putting the pieces together.” ― Ray Bradbury, Zen in the Art of Writing

I feel like this every single day.

Will the landmine be in my mind, one of my children, my husband, my pets? What will the after shock be? Will I recover slow or quick?

I’m trying so hard to keep my energy going – but those bloody landmines keep getting in the way.

Kidney stone caused a late Monday trip to the hospital for me (oh joy), the Thursday before that my poor hubby was in agony from a horrible ear infection, now my youngest has an awful cold and is coughing all night, my eldest turns 17 next week and I have to figure out birthday plans, my middle child – he’s actually not doing bad. No landmines with him, well, except for the behavioural issues.

It’s almost 1 in the afternoon here and I have been ready for bed since I got up.

It’s also worth every waking moment.

I’ll take the landmines and the chaos they cause and use them to produce a life that is full and rich – full of love, laughter, tears, pain, joy, and a wealth in emotion and family. Don’t get me wrong, I would love a calmer existence, but that would be so much more boring.

Now to work on getting that exercise in and moving in the moment!

Ellie Goulding – Explosions

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Lust for Life

“Curiosity is the lust of the mind.” ― Thomas Hobbes

So much ENERGY in me today!

I heard this song on my radio this morning, and it has completely pumped me up. I feel so renewed these last few weeks.

About 4 weeks ago I started seeing a nutritionist/lifestyle coach. Clean eating – and binging on happy tunes. That’s all I’ve been doing…so far. In those 4 weeks I have lost almost 13 lbs and gained and enormous amount of energy! I am loving the food I am eating, and even my pain is reduced. Funny what eating unprocessed, sugar free food can do for a body…

The first week was a bit miserable – coming off a sugar addiction, coffee, and bad fats, plus a gastroenteritis bug thrown in for fun (good times, not). But since that all finished – my brain fog is less and less, my sleep improved – even my eyes look clearer to others! My skin tone is more even.

I knew all this was possible, but having someone guide you makes all the difference in the world.

I’m not going to fool myself – I know with my MS and depression/anxiety it will always be a battle for me; but I’m armed now and ready for combat.

Curiosity is what lead me to this wonderful person who is helping me. I constantly love to learn. For years that desire took a backburner while illness and responsibilities came to the forefront but man – oh man – am I ever ready to dive back in head first and with all the lust for life that I can manage!

I’ve finally learned to live in the now and it is amazing!

Iggy Pop – Lust for Life

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The Doctor

Reinette: One may tolerate a world of demons for the sake of an angel.” ― Steven Moffat

I may have a slight addiction.

Re-watching Doctor Who from 9 on has re-ignited my Doctor Who fangirl…much to the dismay of my darling 3 year old who wants to watch Dinotrux instead of The Doctor (but not always). Though I want to watch them from Hartnell on.

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Watch me…

I need more sock – so what do I do as a knitter? I find Doctor Who themed socks to knit! I may have also found a TARDIS mouse, and purse, and shawl, and, and…Oh my…my Ravelry queue grows longer every day.

I also found patterns for knit Doctor dolls…not sure on them, I prefer the real ones…

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Oh, Doctor, my Doctor!

Some days, I really do wish I could hope into the TARDIS and be whisked away on an adventure. Then I realize I have a ton of work to do and my kids keep calling me…and reality hits me in the head.

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Whoosh…

Isn’t daydreaming fun?

The Doctor’s Themes (9, 10, & 11)

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Charlie’s so cute!

“Never laugh at live dragons.” ― J.R.R. Tolkien

I love bearded dragons. This is no secret.

Charlie has seriously captured my heart in so many way.

This is a really short little video – but I am so happy she is eating veggies as I could not get Evee or Gonzo to (they must not have been fed them as young beardies and never learned to).

Yes, the is my very happy 3 year old praising Charlie for eating LOL!

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California Dreamin’

“I believe in everything until it’s disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it’s in your mind. Who’s to say that dreams and nightmares aren’t as real as the here and now?”  John Lennon

Last week I lost my Evee girl. She was a rescued bearded dragon and had many health issues in the short time I had her. I adopted her June 2016. She went through a broken jaw that never quite healed all the way, an infection in said jaw, a surgery to remove said infection, shots of penicillin, and so many other things. She was a trooper and was so good when I was helping her. Then one day last week she refused to eat. She was gone by the next morning.

I decided then to renovate her enclosure with the idea in my mind that I would not get another beardie until said enclosure was completed and aired out. As of last night this is what it looks like –

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So much work to do…

Well, yesterday I went into my local Petsmart, where I frequently bought insects, to let the clerks know I lost my Evee. One in particular always asked me how she was doing. While there, I spied an adorable 6 to 8 week old baby beardie and…well….

Introducing Charlie Winchester Walker (yes, she is named after Felicia Day’s character and the Winchester Brothers from Supernatural – slight fan here).

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Sweet baby Charlie

Is she not the cutest?!

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JUST LOOK AT HER!!!

Needless to say, I have to get my ass in gear and get that enclosure done. I’m really looking forward to the summer so I can take my sweet Charlie out in the yard to play 🙂 Hence why I chose California Dreamin’ as today’s song – I’m dreaming of that warm sun and beautiful days.

The Mamas & The Papas – California Dreamin’

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Shoop Shoop

“Walk as if you are kissing the Earth with your feet.” ― Thich Nhat Hanh, Peace Is Every Step: The Path of Mindfulness in Everyday Life

It’s Monday sweet people, and it’s a beautiful day to be alive!

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Dance party!

Yes, I really am THAT chipper on a Monday morning. I’m allowed having one small coffee a day – that is a HUGE reason to celebrate!

I have to say, my husband is a huge part of why I feel this awesome. He supports my craziness, he helps me emotionally, and he is just plain there for me.

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Give me a hug!

My kids too – they are my world. I want to do so much for them and with them. This journey to health and happiness is so, so worth it!

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Being weird together as a family is the best thing ever!

My biggest thing is remembering to take time for me. It’s the hardest thing in the world for me to do because, as I’ve said, my kids are my life. I’m not a sit in the tub and read kind of lady.

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So not me…

I’m a gamer – my ‘me’ time is usually playing WoW or reading books. I love to go for walks and hope I can get back into that soon. Yoga could be me time too! Hmmm…

I often wonder how my husband puts up with me. Then he kisses me and I know…

Cher – The Shoop Shoop Song (It’s In His Kiss)

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Giraffe Live Birth

OMG WHEN IS SHE GOING TO HAVE THIS BABY!!!!

The suspense is killing me…even my 3 year old keeps saying ‘no baby yet, no baby yet’. Yes, that’s right bub, no baby yet.

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Hooked on a Feeling

“When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy.” Jalaluddin Rumi

Yes, I know I JUST posted…but I am listening to the most amazing song list of ‘happy’ tunes, and I have a chest for of joy.

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*Joy*

It’s funny how you can live under a dark cloud for so long, it feels normal.

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Don’t cry…

Now, I’m all like

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Bite me bitch {depression}!

I really hope this isn’t a temporary thing. I WANT this to be my permanent way of being. I want my kids to see me how I used to be – carefree and happy and willing to dance even without music.

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You can’t hear it, but I can!

Blue Swede – Hooked on a Feeling

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Doctor Jones

“Aside from criminology, I’d say archaeology has the highest body count.” Jarod Kintz, $3.33

“The geologist takes up the history of the earth at the point where the archaeologist leaves it, and carries it further back into remote antiquity.” Bal Gangadhar Tilak, The Arctic Home in the Vedas

Two for one quote day!

In a countryside a long, long time ago, in a world not that far away, lived a young woman who loved ancient history and Indiana Jones.

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Seriously – how can you NOT want to be an archaeologist!


Can you FEEL that!

My maiden name is Jones.

I have a degree in Archaeology (and my first degree is Anthropology/Classical Studies) – my classmates and friends used to call me Gwendiana Jones. I’m not joking.

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What?!

I know, Indy, Crazy!

When I hear of new discovers, I still get a rush of excitement to find out more details.

Then cue life – right out of left field. A controlling fiancé turned husband, children, divorce, a new marriage, responsibilities – you know, life.

For several years I have been fighting a fog of depression, anxiety, stress, and illness.

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Whip that shit!

I started a new program with a WONDERFUL nutritionist at Sculpt Fredericton named Allison Hill. She is da bomb!

In the last week I have already gained more energy and joy than I have in the past several YEARS! I have had happy moments, don’t get me wrong, but this time I actually FEEL it inside of me instead of a deep, dark hole.

What does that have to do with Archaeology? Nothing really – except for the joy and excitement. My life isn’t over, not by a long shot. I have always said that I still have time.

You never know – maybe one day, I’ll hear someone call me Doctor after all, while I am digging in a remote location looking for my next big find.

I know it’s not as it is portrayed in film and on TV – oh trust me I know (I loved creating a topographic map of a site I dug on, very cool). But all the things people think of as tedious in the career – I LOVE. I LOVE cataloguing and holding items. I LOVE taking my time, clearing off objects – it’s my Zen.

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Thanks for the inspiration, Indy.

No matter where the series goes, Harrison Ford will always be Indiana to me.

Aqua – Doctor Jones

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One Tin Soldier

One tin soldier
Listen people to a story
That was written long ago,
’bout a kingdom on a mountain
And the valley folks below.
On the mountain was a treasure
Hidden deep beneath a stone,
And the valley people swore
They’d have it for their very own.

Go ahead and hate your neighbor,
Go ahead and cheat a friend.
Do it in the name of heaven,
You can justify it in the end.
There won’t be any trumpets blowing,
Come the judgment day,
On the bloody morning after
One tin soldier rides away.

So the people of the valley
Sent a message up the hill,
Asking for the buried treasure
Tons of gold for which they’d kill.
Came the answer from the kingdom,
With our brothers we will share,
All the riches of the mountain,
All the treasure buried there.

Now the valley cried with anger,
Mount your horses, draw your swords
And they killed the mountain people,
So they won their just rewards
Now they stood before the treasure
On the mountain dark and red
Turned the stone and looked beneath it
Peace on earth, was all it said.

Go ahead and hate your neighbor,
Go ahead and cheat and friend,
Do it in the name of heaven,
You can justify it in the end.
There won’t be any trumpets blowing
Come the judgment day,
On the bloody morning after
One tin soldier rides away.

Written by Brian Potter, Dennis Earle Lambert • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group

Original Cast – One Tin Soldier

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