Marco Polo

“One thing you can’t hide – is when you’re crippled inside.” ― John Lennon

“I don’t want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and to dominate them.” ― Oscar WildeThe Picture of Dorian Gray

Life often throws us curves and sends us on a voyage across a sea of emotions.

They sway and stagger with the rise and fall of the waves being thrown their way.

For some, it is easy to hide. For others – they simply try to navigate through the waves as best they can with the tools they have.

I wonder, sometimes, how ancient mariners navigated the open oceans with no idea what they would or could encounter. How do our lives even compare to that massive unknown.

Looking up at the night sky, I wonder how my ancestors made their way in life. Did they let their emotions roll them or did they flow with the currents…

Loreena McKennitt – Marco Polo

Food for the Soul

“Myths have a very long memory.” Bryan Sykes, Saxons, Vikings, and Celts: The Genetic Roots of Britain and Ireland

On Sunday evening I had the immense pleasure of watching Loreena McKennitt perform. Along side her were guitarist (etc) Brian Hughes and cellist (etc) Caroline Lavelle. It was mesmerizing. McKennitt’s voice and stories were captivating, but I have to say that Caroline Lavelle’s obvious passion for playing really blew me away.

Watching the trio gave me a full serving of questioning my life. Is that odd? Music is my food for the soul. It nourishes me in ways nothing else can. All my life I have dreamt of learning various instruments, singing, learning various languages to sing in.

Instead I sit here in my office, dredging over old reports, wondering why I am neither digging in the dirt and dealing with antiquities or singing and playing for my life. Those are my passions. I know that. Music and archaeology. Yet, neither has a huge roll in my life anymore.

I’m almost 42 years old. What have I done with my life? What am I teaching my children? When will I finally chase my dreams and make them real?

Loreena McKennitt – The Mystic’s Dream

Silver Linings

“Stars can’t shine without darkness” D.H. Sidebottom, Fragile Truths (Source: Goodreads).

I love this quote. It’s the background on my tablet. What does that mean though? Well, for me – it basically means that without adversity, without problems, you won’t know how brilliant you are (metaphorically and intellectually speaking). If everything was light, you would never see yourself shine.

I’m hoping that’s my present truth. I feel like my silver linings are tarnishing. My shine is dimming. My health is dragging me down. I know I have it better than many. I keep telling myself that it’s useless to complain, even to myself. But I’m having a pity party today and I’m inviting everyone.

My ears are plugged, I’ve had dizzy spells while blowing my nose, I am 99.9% positive that my cold is now indeed a full blown infection (especially if the nose leavings are any proof). I have absolutely no energy and even sitting at my desk at work today is a testament of my strength.

There it is. I am strong. I am here, at work, sick as can be – but I am here. I am far stronger than I give myself credit for. I am far more capable than I believe. I may be physically fighting off some illness, but I am still strong.

That’s my silver lining for today. In my darkness, I see the star that I am, that I can be.

Loreena McKennitt – The Mystic’s Dream