A Break in the Clouds

“Fuck this.
Fuck this wondering. Fuck this trying and trying. Fuck this belief that two people can become one ideal. Fuck this helplessness. Fuck this waiting for something to happen that probably won’t ever happen.”David Levithan, Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist

Does anyone actually ever catch a break?

Seriously…ever?

Since February I have had a lot of shit happen. I was actually listing it off and decided it was easier just to say it’s been a really crappy start to 2016. I’m hoping things turn around now…

Can I haz nap now plz?

Between the pets, hubby (diagnosed with Parkinson’s a few weeks ago), and the teens and toddler…I’m ready for an extended break

I have a break in the clouds tomorrow at least – my mom paid for me to get a massage. I can’t wait. Hopefully my heart will stop thumping before then.

Rob Zombie – Living Dead Girl

It’s Really Nice Outside…

…and I can hardly keep my eyes open. Blarg. Baby napping with his daddy, I slept in and couldn’t sleep, but feel like I’ve been hit by a 2×4. Face is puffy. Ah, allergies, you’re so much fun! I feel like I could sleep for a month, but can’t. What?! How is that even possible?

I would LOVE to go outside and clean up the yard. OR better yet, open up all the windows and clean house. That’s an even better plan. That takes energy. Dang it! What is this energy thing you speak of?

No call about my MRI yet. I wonder if this fatigue is related to MS. I mean, I know MS can cause extreme fatigue, but is it? Who knows.

Coffee isn’t helping either…I just feel more tired. That’s weird, right?

Maybe feeling inspired will help?

“It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.” – Aristotle Onassis (source http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/quotes/a/aristotleo119068.html?src=t_inspirational).

So true. If I focus hard enough I can see it. I have a great support network – family, friends. I can see that light at the end of this tunnel.

Owl City – Fireflies: