So I just watched the Animals video by Maroon 5. As someone who has experienced a mild form of stalking – wow…freaky. I was going to write about something completely different, until I watched it.

Maroon 5 – Animals

“There’s a fine line between support and stalking and let’s all stay on the right side of that.” Joss Whedon

Yes, Joss, there definitely is. When I was in university a friend of mine decided that leaving notes in my car was a great idea. I had NO idea who was doing it. They even talked about how they felt about me, and gave me hints. Problem is that this friend knew more about me than I did about him…the hints were lost to me. I went to university in one city, but worked in a town over at a nightclub. One night after work, there was another note. No one in sight.

I can honestly say I was scared. A mutual friend of this friend knew him better than I did. With her help we figured out who he was. The letters stopped thereafter. Moral of the story –  DON’T BE A DICK STALKER!

Seriously…that should not have to be said.

In case you haven’t guessed, yes I am in a far better mood today. No pity part. I am still in pain from my fall last week. But I have a better general outlook. Mental health. Don’t take it for granted. If you’ve never experienced mental health issues – count yourself very blessed. I count myself lucky…even with the issues I have.

Here’s the goals for the next month:

– do up the meal plans I have been talking about for months FINALLY – more vegetables, more fruit, more fish, less processed crap

– walk a minimum of 10 minutes every day

– walk the dogs a minimum of 3 times a week (I have two 80 lbs dogs {both SPCA specials; a husky shepherd mix and a Rottweiler shepherd mix – we think} and 1 10 lbs cat-dog {a Pomeranian poodle cross}).

– early to bed, early to rise! Get up 1/2 an hour earlier than normal to do YOGA!

I think those are decent goals for the month. Let’s see how I actually do…

Crushing the Mind

I don’t know how long now this numbness has been going on; I know it’s been weeks. I finally called my family doctor as I’m feeling crushed. Yesterday, I couldn’t remember the word rhetorical. This may not seem like a big deal to some, but to me it is. I love that I have a large and well-rounded vocabulary; losing any of it is a blow to me.

Sleep. A good night’s sleep would help I am sure, but when your 15 month old wakes at 2 or 3 am and nurses most of the night…well, sleep is elusive to say the least (yes, I am still breastfeeding – he is my last child of three and the only one I could successful nurse, WHO suggest nursing up to 24 months). Thank the Powers That Be my hubby is a good man who keeps up with most of the house for us. He is also a wonderful stay-at-home dad who works part-time. I told him to enjoy it, he would never get this time over again with our son (my older two are from a previous marriage, this is my hubby’s first biological child).

I need to renew my practice in mindfulness, yoga, and proper eating. I constantly fall off the train on them and I know they would make all the difference in my life. It’s hard. I would love to be one of those people who find activity and proper nutrition come naturally to them. Even when I was a teen I had to struggle to be active. I made myself join cheerleading in my last year of high school and did it for two years at university. I loved it. But it was hard to find the energy. I remember going to dances with my friends and being the only one to fall asleep at a table (I’m not joking).

Oh to get a wonderful night’s sleep and actually feel rested. I wonder how that feels…

8 Hour Deep Sleep Music: Delta Waves, Relaxing Music Sleep, Sleeping Music, Sleep Meditation ☯159 – Yellow Brick Cinema: